sometimes I wonder...for the most part, I love working with kids and helping them to be successful, but of course there are those times when I wonder why I try so hard and want to be so involved with kids at this junior high age some times. Today as I was observing, I got to work with more groups of kids which I thought was going to be fun and some thing a little different than what usually happens. However, the first group that I worked with was a not too willing to cooperate with everything they were supposed to be doing. They were kids who had missed class so they were making it up and are usually behind because of not trying and struggling as it is. However, when they were taken out of the room and not with a teacher they tried to see what all they could get away with and were not too interested in doing any work. So, when two of the boys started to play tic tac toe with each other instead of writing the story like they were supposed to, I had to send them back into the classroom to see the teacher. Of course, I am the kind of person who feels bad after they have to do something like this because I could tell that both of the boys were not too happy. I did think it was interesting though how they did respond in a better way than I thought they would because both started to act some what better when they were in the room again and were quieter and more respectful, I am assuming because they had gotten in trouble. But one of the two students got into some more trouble later for an inappropriate action so I know he does have some behavior issues and it wasnt just me that he was acting out because of being with me. And then there were some of the other kids who were working with me that would not stay quiet enough to work for the time that they were given. I had to seperate a couple of them so that one could finish because he said he was not able to work with his friend next to him. Then there was another kid who was having a hard time to get an idea and story started and so was trying to get ideas from the person working next to him and so was then being loud and knew he was gaining attention from all of those in the hallway. Which of course being at the age he is, was thrilled to have all of the attention on him which just kept the behaviors coming. Luckily time ran out and they had to go back into the classroom to work on somethign else and the time of trying to keep them all working was over. It was one of those times when I was thinking to myself, I dont know how I could do this every day, all the time and not go crazy. I am still glad that I am doing what I will be going into but it was definatley that reality check for me to remember that things are not always going to be fun and wonderful but there will be those trying moments. I do think of this time as more of a learning experience to help me in the future when I may be faced wtih a similar situation again. On the other hand, I was noticing a lot more kids were remembering my name and using that instead of teacher which was nice to know, but also kinda sad at the same time since I know that I will have very little time left with them since the semester is coming to a close very quickly. I know that today was something good even though right now it seems like it wasnt and I know that as long as I took something away from it then I will be better off later.